INSOMNIA ..

Insomnia adalah teman baruku juga sebagai musuh..Dia memainkan kenanganku seperti film untuk menjaga aku dari tidurku.melihat semua kesedihan yang aku rasakan dan semua kemarahan yang aku seharusnya tidak aku rasakan..Rasa takut, rasa sakit, dan rasa tidak aman yang mendorongku menepi. Sesuatu jauh di dalam diriku yang tidak bisa menebus kesalahan. Mengepalkan perutku, hatiku berdetak cepat, dan air mata di mataku. Mengapa tidak akan berhenti..?? Mengapa aku tidak dapat beristirahat..?? Biarkan aku tidur dan bermimpi malam ini agar aku bisa menemukan kedamaian..pagi akan segera datang dan pikiran-pikiran ini akan berhenti

ada yang ada dan tau lagu ini : Let Me Cry - Mila Mason

I don't want your sympathy
I can't believe you're telling me
That you don't love me anymore
You say that we can still be friends
And in time my heart will mend
Well, that ain't what I'm looking for

So let me cry by myself
'Cause these tears will help
To wash away the pain
I know in time they will dry
But for now please go away and let me cry

Tell me is there someone new
That you've given your love to
Or is it something that I've done?
Don't think I'll ever understand
We could come this far and then
You could leave me here alone and

Let me cry by myself
'Cause these tears will help
To wash away the pain
I know in time they will dry
But for now please go away and let me cry

I know in time they will dry
But for now please go away and let me cry
But for now please go away and let me cry

Avril Lavigne - Anything but ordinary

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
I'd rahter be anything but ordinary please.

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is this beautiful
accident turbulent suculent
I'm feeling permanent
No way I won't taste it
Dont wanna waste it away

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh my self to sleep
It's my lullaby

Is it enough?
Is it enough?
Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

Is it enough?
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

Hmm ..

It would be better if I just moved on, found someone new. . . but I can't. What hurts the most isn't that he's moving on. . . it's the fact that if I walk away, he won't follow me.
I can't stand that.
When he looks at me with those melt-my-heart brown eyes, I almost die, knowing that I had him, then lost him, for I was afraid to let anyone break my barriers. It's sad because he did what I tried to prevent him from doing. He smuggled his way into my heart, then ripped himself out, leaving a nasty hole in it's place.
I hate him. . .
And yet, I can't help but love him. . .

Friends .. ^^

A friend is someone who will catch you when you fall, dry your tears and tell you it will be all right, pretend to be happy just to cheer you up, never leave you by yourself, attempt to talk to you at least once a day no matter what, make you laugh when you're sad, call back if you hang up on them, make everything you two do together into something fun no matter how boring it is, always remind you of your inside jokes, finish your sentences, think the same way you do, follow you wherever you go, stop you from doing something stupid or hurting yourself, and they're always willing to give up something that means a lot to them because they can be sure you'll always be there in return, and because to them you'll always mean more than you can imagine.

Sedikit tentang saya ..

Hmm .. sebenarnya sih gw ga bgtu tertarik dengan hal seperti ini .. tapi temn gw blg coba aja lah,siapa tau bisa mengurangi beban pikiran gw yang mnrt gw udah sumpek sesumpek2nya..wkwkwk..! .. okelah gw pkir2 ga ada salahnya juga dcoba .. hahaha..xD

hmm .. mungkin gw mlai dri ..sni :

nama gw cindy .. lengkapnya cindy chin .. gw biasa dipanggil ncin .. knp gw dipanggil ncin ? gw sndiri jg ga tw .. dan anehnya gw terbiasa dipanggil sperti itu .. haha..gw masih smp .. gw punya 1 emak,1 bapak,1 ade cowo dan 1 ade cewe .. gw pikir udah cukup memperkenalkan diri gw..

dannn ...

gw buat blog ini buat mencurahkan isi hati gw ,menceritakan tentang hidup gw disni..wkkww.. ! bwt mengurangi beban pikiran gw ..ahahha..karena gw ga tw maw crita ma sapa .. dan gw jg ga tw siapa yang bisa dipercaya ..ahahah..!

yasudah.. itu tidak penting ..hahah..

gw masih sangath tidak terbiasa bermain dengan 'blog' bahkan gw masih ga ngerti .. tapi gw mw berusaha mempelajarinya  < asik> wkkww..! lama2 jg biasa..enjoy aj dhe..=)

hmm ..gw pikir2..udah dulu dhe .. smpe sni dlo ..gw ga tw lagi harus ngetik apa lagi ..

dan jg hari sudah malam ..waktunya tiidduur .. !

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